True Ex-Gay Talk Support Call Coming Back?

True Ex-Gay Talk Support Call Coming Back?

I have been getting some requests to restart my True Ex Gay Support Call again. I would like to restart our True Ex-Gay Talk Support Call again in the near future and have the call twice a month or more. This time around I would like to know who would actually come on the call on a fairly consistent basis. This call is for you and for any concerns or questions you may have for me or some issue you want to discuss. It is a private and confidential call. You can listen in or speak- whatever is comfortable for you.

(Read disclaimer below)

I would like to find out:

• What days of the week are good for you? (I prefer during the weekday from Mon-Fri)
 

• What times would be good for you? (I'd like to know between what hours from the earliest to the latest)
 

• Would you be open to participate or listen in on the call with an anonymous name (if needed)?
 

• Would you be committed to return to the call when it is available or announced?
 

• What would you like to speak about on the call or have me discuss on the call?
 

•  What ideas do you have for me?

As you can see, I am being as open as I can for you because I want to be able to be a support for you.

Go to True Ex Gay Talk page and read more about what we will do on the call.

Once I get some responses, I will post what we came up with and what I feel will be most convenient for you.


NOTE: God bless and don't keep me hanging. I really want to hear from you. If you have my personal number, just call or text me.


Disclaimer: The only time I may record is to get my responses to questions so I can create an audio with my voice only while I address questions or speak in general. No one's voice would be recorded or published unless agreed upon.

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How Coming Out of the Closet, Let's God In

How Coming Out of the Closet, Let's God In

In my past experiences as a lesbian, when I came out of the closet to my family and friends, I thought it was the best thing for me. Well, what I mean is as a young woman with feelings I did not know what to do with, at the time I thought it was best for me to tell what I was feeling than to keep it in and live a double life.

Now, with that being said, coming out also resulted to my breakdown of becoming the woman God wanted me to be. While at the time, I felt getting it all out in the air to those that mattered to me was good, I had opened up a can of worms I did not know would leach onto me for many years.

I do thank God for how he allowed things to happen in my life though. I can't imagine not expressing it to anyone, getting married, having kids and ultimately destroying my life as I may have been on the down low. Yes, even women live on the down low too.

Though I would have rather not lived a life of homosexuality, if I had never revealed it, then how could God have changed me and delivered me? I know He used my sin to eventually turn me around and be a testimony for others. For those that never tell it and live in secret, they never allow God, in His time, to break the sin from them.

Are you living in secret as a lesbian or a homosexual? Have you kept it from everyone or those close to you? 

I know it may seem strange that God can bless someone even in their coming out phase but it is true. Coming out of the closet, unknowingly, allows God to do what He will in your life. For some like myself, it took years to hear God's voice, but thank God I did. 

By my being out and open at one time in the lifestyle, ultimately brought shame, conviction and guilt on my heart that I had never felt before. I felt like Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden- naked, ashamed and running for fig leaves!

My 'coming out' became 'my coming into' God's will. Will you walk into God's will today?

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The Question is: Are You Really Happy Being Gay?

Are You Really Happy Being Gay?

I ask this question because I was there once a upon a time. I know how it feels to first get into the lifestyle after having thoughts of the same sex for years and not knowing where its coming from. I hope the following questions help you as they helped me and many others.

"But are you really happy living your life as a homosexual"

I know that sometimes being in the lifestyle was like the best thing ever. Most people feel like being gay and living it was their destiny and nothing could be greater.

"But is it really so wonderful?"

Sure, there are moments of what we feel is love, compassion and respect for and from the same sex. Maybe someone never really received the love they needed from a mother or father and finding it in the same sex, is what seems to fill the void.

"But does it really fill the void?"

I'm not sure after maybe sharing intimate moments with a significant other or many others will really make anyone happy when many times its only sex or the attraction that keeps the 'buzz' of excitement going.

"But what do you do when the excitement wears off?"

Well, maybe you move on to another lover and another in the relentless quest to find love but deep down you know it will never come. Why? Well, because what you are attracted to still doesn't seem to fulfill you like you want it to.

"But what about all of the homosexuals and lesbians getting married? Aren't they happy?"

I don't know. Some homosexuals may think they are born that way and again destined to live their life as such. Others are just aimlessly seeking to rid the pain of non-fulfillment in their lives. Others, also, may have experienced other things in life and its coming out as an attraction to the same sex and this is their goal. Their goal is to do what they feel is right but not necessarily what they know is right. So, they perhaps pursue getting married to the same sex even though some know deep down this is a mistake. 

"But why make a lifelong commitment knowing its a mistake?"

Well, for some, they feel its too late to turn back or its too hard to conquer homosexual feelings or no one will accept them if they change now. The big one is that God won't love and take them in.

The truth is: many gays appear happy because they have convinced themselves its what they really want. But deep down these individuals are not happy and only want to prove in many ways they are because to them, there's no turning back.

"But aren't there people out there that really are happy being gay?"

For their own reasons, and any former homosexual will tell you, that they didn't want or see themselves changing - EVER; but God touched them. I do believe that some people have been seduced by the homosexual spirit and think they may never change. Thanks be to God, it doesn't have to be that way.

"But what about those who have same sex attraction but don't want it anymore?"

Now, these individuals realize they are not happy. Also, maybe God is convicting them and they are fighting to get out of the lifestyle. Many of them have experienced the excitement of meeting someone and getting intimate but quickly realize after every encounter, it is just wrong. They know its against God and want to change but find it hard to do so.

If you find yourself asking some of these questions, then maybe you know you want to get out of the lifestyle of homosexuality. I don't confess to know everyone's situation or how everyone gets into homosexuality because everyone is unique. But I do speak on some of the common reasons why people get into the life.

It really doesn't matter how or why except the fact of wanting to pinpoint some unresolved issues in our lives. God knows it all and whatever reason we find ourselves in the gay lifestyle, He can get us out of it, if we really want out. He can give us the strength to fight the feelings for the same sex. If we only be open to hear and receive Him with all of our heart, will we then allow His spirit to move inside of us like never before. You will be surprised how strong you really are if you only allow the impossible to you be worked out by the impossible God. (Matthew 19:26)

I'm telling you. Once you give your life to Christ, and open up your heart, mind and soul to Him, He will do exceedingly, abundantly and more than you can ask, think or expect. (Ephesians 3:20).

You don't have to remain bound to the spirit of homosexuality. There is a way out and my God and your God can do it. Just come to Him and trust Him.

If you are man, woman, or teen struggling with homosexuality, same sex attraction or any other concern, please contact T. Marie for support at the Contact Page.

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Five Things to Do If You Still Struggle With Homosexual Feelings After Being Delivered

Five Things to Do If You Still Struggle With Homosexual Feelings After Being Delivered

I have been contacted by many people who continue to struggle with homosexual feelings after being delivered from the gay lifestyle and sin. I have found that there are five things that I have to do daily to keep my mind on God and away from the thoughts or desires of my past life.

Now, let me say this firstly to those who think if you still have gay feelings, you shouldn't fight it because you can't stop being gay. This is not true. Once a person has accepted Jesus Christ as their personal Savior, they are delivered from the sin they have given it over to God. This goes for any sin as well as homosexuality. So, you can't take it back even if you still have feelings. God doesn't take back our deliverance.

1) Prayer- You need to pray for God to give you strength  at this time. Even though you are praying for strength, God needs you to get close to Him. Whenever you find yourself struggling, always draw near to Him. If you spend more time in prayer, God will comfort you in this time of need.

2) Fasting- For those of you who can do so (health wise, that is), you should find time to fast. I have started to fast 5 days straight out of each month. I need God's word to be clearer to me. When I fast, all my defenses are down and He has my undivided attention. I receive more strength and power from fasting every time I do so. Fasting is highly effective along with prayer.

3) Eliminating distractions from your life. Sometimes we have things in our lives that cause distractions from giving God our all. We can sometimes have family, friends, work or personal things that distract us from being all we need to be for God. We can find ourselves so overcrowded with life's issues and problems that those old 'feelings' creep right in. Evaluate who you have in your life and what's going on around you so you can concentrate on Him and your work for Him.

4) Deal with your life's issues. You know, when we gave our life to Christ on that faithful day, we had all intentions on being everything we could be for Him. We may have even thought that homosexuality or some sexual sin would solve all of your problems. Well, you have probably realized that isn't the case. Truthfully, we all have more issues in our lives than just sexual sin and when we are delivered from that one, there are other issues that come to surface that we now see more clearly. So, what I did was find out why I still felt broken and started dealing with those issues. I realized this is a lifetime commitment and God gives me strength to conquer all the other things in my life.

5) Start concentrating on others. If you are struggling with homosexual feelings and have been delivered from it, start finding time to reach out to others. When we take the focus off ourselves and help one another, we can sometimes find what is causing our struggle. Many times when I helped someone else, I was able to see my own issue more clearly and why I struggled with things. God worked through me while I was helping to bring someone else out of the lifestyle. Its a remarkable thing what God can do through others.

So, those are the top five things that helped me and I continue to use them on a daily basis. I always remember, this is much bigger than me. It's not all about my struggle but the enemy's conquest for my soul. This is a bigger battle than just what I face. But what I do know is: As long as I deal with the struggles in the appropriate manner and not fall into sin, I am more than a conqueror and so are you.

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What To Do When You Still Struggle with Same Sex Attraction?

What To Do When You Still Struggle with Same Sex Attraction? 

Originally posted Aug. 11, 2011


When I first became saved and delivered from homosexuality, I was so happy to be out of the lifestyle. All I did was think about how I was living before and knew God had taken me out of a pit and into the marvelous light. I was strong, faithful and praised God every chance I could get to stay in His presence.

This was great until the enemy reminded me that I used to be homosexual. Satan has a cunning way of making us remember what wrong we have done in our lives. If we give our lives over to God, he is lurking around for an opportunity get our minds back on the sin we have already been delivered from.

I heard one pastor say once, "The enemy works through thoughts, ideas and suggestions." I heard this while I had been delivered from homosexuality for nearly 3 years. The pastor pointed out that Satan knows how to get into our thoughts so we can think and ponder about what we used to do. He uses those thoughts to give us ideas about what we used to do. And through those ideas, he whispers suggestions in our ears in order to make us decide to do anything that will get us back into the homosexual lifestyle.

Now, during your walk with Christ, thoughts, ideas and suggestions will be whispered into your ear because Satan wants your soul back. Yes, I said he wants it back. You see, as long as we were living as homosexuals, bisexuals, fornicators, adulterers, etc, Satan had his hand on our souls. But guess what? When we gave our lives to Christ, Satan had to step aside because we are now under new management. God has papers on us and as long as we live for Him, Satan can not touch us.

So, when you hear the enemy's voice whispering in your ear and trying to suggest things to do that goes against God, remember who owns you. God already paid the price on the cross at Calvary, died and rose on the third day. As true, authentic, born again Christians, our names are written in the lambs Book of Life. We have eternal life and there is nothing that Satan can do about it.

Now, if you can see how struggling with same sex attraction after being delivered can happen, then you can see how important it is to keep your mind and thoughts on God throughout the day. This is what I do on a daliy basis to keep my mind on God which blocks the enemies attacks on my thoughts.

1) The first thing I do in the morning is pray and read my bible. I make time even before
work, school or play to give God His time. This is the key to building a close relationship
with Him. He will help you throughout the day at keeping your thoughts pure and on His goodness.
Make sure to pray and ask God to take away the feelings you have. He will hear your prayer.

2) I make sure I help someone each day. I call someone and offer my help or assistance. I
try and encourage anyone I can. Of course this is part of my ministry but this keeps my mind
on doing things for God and not about me. Helping other people takes your mind off your issues
and struggles and puts them where they should be: trying to give to someone else who needs
help. I promise you, this is the most rewarding thing you can do to please God and enrich
someone else's life along with yours.

3) Use your deliverance as a testimony for someone else. God did not save you from homosexuality to keep it to yourself. If you know someone whose struggling to get out of the lifestyle, offer speak with them or help them. If you were like alot of us, we didn't have people just waiting around to help us out of the lifestyle. Many of us were rejected and had nowhere to go for help. So, be there for someone else.

By doing these few things each day or often during the week, it will take your testimony and your deliverance to the next level. You will see more out of live than your struggle with same sex attraction. In fact, you will probably not struggle as much.

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