No Need for Fancy Counseling- God's Deliverance is for FREE

No Need for Fancy Counseling- God's Deliverance is for FREE

Originally published on June 8, 2011

I hear of many people who have spent thousands of dollars on counseling and programs to help them 'stop homosexuality'. Many people, perhaps go into these circumstances believing they can stop the behavior by attending these kinds of programs. I don't want to give the impression that they wouldn't work for someone but for many it is not needed. The information given at some of these programs are probably very helpful and surely have helped those who could embrace it.

What I have learned through the people I have spoken to is the person is looking for the 'program' to work for them. I always say anything that does not have biblical approach to it will not in many cases work. Sometimes we just don't see any other options but to dish out money for help.

But I am a witness that if a person realizes that all external things may not work, its time to look to a higher power. This higher power is Our Lord Jesus Christ. I tried looking for people and churches to help me rid of my misery of living as a homosexual. In my case, I was turned down and ridiculed by church leaders who literally shook their heads at me in disgust or slammed a door in my face. I was bruised and depressed by how my life would turn out which gave me less a reason to want to get out.

Finally, I read the bible with my then girlfriend who wanted out of homosexuality and this was my day. I felt God's love like never before. I heard Him speak to me for the first time and I was listening. The shame, guilt and tears just came down on me like never before. I accepted Him totally for the first time and I knew I had been living my life against His will. Suddenly on the day in 1999, I no longer wanted to be a homosexual but wanted to live for Him and never turn back. And I truly never turned back.

All I want people to know is everyone can find deliverance where ever they are. The fancy counseling and paid programs that want to prove a person can stop homosexuality is only partly true. These programs can help a person focus on the program and ways to stop it but it is not the same as being 'delivered', 'saved' or 'set free' from it.

The difference in the two is: a behavior can be stopped but picked up again. There's no tangible spiritual reason to never do it again and there's nothing to stand on. Fortunately, when a person is 'delivered' from the homosexuality lifestyle, it is washed by the blood of Jesus. Jesus Christ has intercepted one moment in their lives where He heard their plea for help and supernaturally touched them. A person in this case, does not want to be a homosexual any longer and the desires are washed away. Only Jesus can deliver a person from being gay not a program.

So for anyone that feels they need to go to a program to be delivered from homosexuality, this will not work. If you are looking to 'stop' homosexuality, this may help temporarily but not ultimately.

I was delivered by reading the bible in a motel room as I was homeless at the time. And mine you, I didn't want to read the bible that day. My girlfriend at the time wanted to and I finally accepted. As she began to read the bible, the spirit of God became so clear to me. After years of being a lesbian, I finally surrendered to God and He saved me and her too! God saved me her through her desire to change which helped me reach out one more time to Him and I am so grateful. It was that one day of just saying YES to a bible reading that changed my life forever.

Deliverance from homosexuality is available and it is for FREE. God's love, mercy and grace is FREE. Your salvation is FREE because He already paid the price on the cross.

So if you are tired of trying to find ways to finally be delivered from the gay lifestyle, it can be done through Jesus if you are willing to listen.

If you are struggling with homosexuality and want a way out, don't believe the negative hype. You CAN be delivered from being gay, God will do it for you as you come to Him with a open and humble heart. Please visit us True Ex-Gay Talk page to request an appointment to speak with T. Marie.

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Overcoming Homosexuality: You Can't Do This By Yourself!

Overcoming Homosexuality: You Can't Do This By Yourself!

I was thinking about when I gave my life to Christ back in 1999 and it was the day after Thanksgiving. I actually saw the world in a different light. Everything appeared to be different to me. The familiar city I grew up in felt like a foreign place as if I had just moved there. I was clearly on a new journey and I knew my life would never be the same from that day forth.

At first, I never thought about what support I needed in the process. I had always been the type of person that I thought I could handle and conquer anything. But I did not realize that it would be very difficult to do this with no other support outside of reading my bible and praying to God. Though the woman I used to be with received Jesus the same day I did, we both needed support outside of ourselves. 

We tried contacting churches and ministries to help us but most people just shunned us and turned their noses up to us. As a new Christian,  it was confusing to realize that some churches and ministries don't recognize being formerly homosexual has a blessing from God. So, we had to just encourage each other and depend on God. And ultimately, this is what we all have to do if we don't have any help. We can rely on Him completely even in the really hard times; the really lonely times and the really confusing times. He is your 'all and all' and always believe in this.

Now, with that being said, I still believe people need help from others because we just naturally need one another. I know that I tackled my struggle without it but I just could not find the resources. And I will never, ever, ever, ever say it was easy because it was not. There were times I was completely confidant about my salvation and then there were times I felt I had not changed at all. Even in the moments of thoughts and feelings seeming to overwhelm me, that is when I felt my salvation was slipping; at least that is how I saw it. But I found out God does not condemn me for thoughts but only what I do with my thoughts. And I have to say, I developed a real fear of God and knew He was watching my every move and that was enough for me to stay strong. If you really think about how God really sees and watches over us all day long, then we realize that He cares about our true walk with Him.

The fact of the matter is: we really can not do this by ourselves. Our walk away from the lifestyle and walking beside God now, requires we continually seek Him in prayer and fasting and get in touch with people who really care and want the best for us. So, if you can get in contact with some group or ministry that can truly give you support you need in this struggle, you should.

That is why I make myself available to whomever wants or needs support and guidance. The fact that I did not get that kind of support is why I do what I do all the more. I know what it feels like to face the world and wonder if people know what you used to be. I know what if feels like to not know how to relate to people especially the same sex after being saved. I also know what it feels like to not have anyone you can talk to and when you do open up, they walk away because they can't deal with it. It seems like once you decide to leave the gay lifestyle, everything is new and unfamiliar. You literally have to start training yourself how to deal with certain people certain ways- At least that is what I faced.

So, you don't have to do this alone. God would rather us reason together and help one another. The best thing I could have done in my whole life is testify what God did for me. It literally was more important than life itself to me. It changes you on the inside and the joy is overwhelming.

Do you need help today? Are you struggling and don't know how to face life in the midst of change or even after change? Well, I know you can't do this by yourself. I'm here if you need to support.

God bless.

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When You Face Life's Issues, What Do You Do with The Aftermath of Stress?

When You Face Life's Issues, What Do You Do with The Aftermath of Stress?

 I wanted to address this because as we are working on our spirits and seeking God, much of the issues that we are addressing now leave an aftermath of hurt feelings, depression, anxiety and other emotions.

So, I wanted to share with you some ways I deal with the stress of digging into my past and confronting some of the deepest issues of my life. But even though I find it stressful and emotionally taxing, I truly believe confronting them is the best way to get close to God. He will bless us and give us true peace by dealing with our past and present issues. 

Just to give you some background, I was then, the expert at not dealing with issues. When my father had is mental breakdown, I was told to 'just deal' with it and move on. All through my childhood, I was never taught to confront issues and I assume this is because my family did not face issues themselves. We did not talk or discuss anything and my parents essentially handled everything and kept my brother and I naive and clueless. I am sure many people have been through this too, so this is why it is important to manage the stress of confronting issues. 

I'll admit I still deal with family issues, and all I want to do is confront them, understand them, put them to rest and live my life. I do feel most people desire this as well.

If you don't mind me taking you through what I do to keep the anxiety and stress down while I'm living to please Christ, I think it would be helpful for you too. Actually, its a lifestyle change.

When you are starting to deal with unresolved issues or issues that seem to need your attention now in life, its always best to seek God in prayer. This is the best medicine or remedy ever. Seeking His face will relieve you of most of your stress and I have learned that my suggestions below will help God see us as good stewards over our bodies which is the temple of God.

1) We can start by watching our diets. By making sure you minimize your intact of sugar, high calorie fatty foods and salt, your brain can handle the added stress of the problems you are facing. In addition, make sure to eat fruits and vegetables and drink plenty of water. I don't eat red meat but once every few months but I do eat chicken, fish and turkey. I drink water all day and maybe a soda once a week.

2) If you try and do some kind of exercise like walking the neighborhood or working out at least 4 times a week for 30 minutes to an hour, this really relieves the stress. I try to walk and/or workout 4 times a week. I also do deep breathing exercises daily. Taking deep breaths in and holding it for 7 seconds and repeating it 10 times, truly takes the stress and tightness from your head and breathes more oxygen through your brain. It is a true stress reliever.

3) If you don't already, please take a multiple vitamin like a One A Day for men or women. Its very important that we get our daily vitamins because food is not enough. Also, if you don't have much energy during the day, a multi vitamin is a great energy and mood enhancer. Not everyone believes in vitamins, but trust me they work. I'm 43 years old with no existing health issues. It's kind of nice being mistaken for my son's sister! (Sometimes)

Believe it or not, I have been taking an array of vitamins and herbs on a daily basis for nearly 15 years. After my grandmother passed, I was on a mission to find a vitamin or herb cure for heart attacks. I found a combination of them that I wished I could have given her. But I became intrigued by health food so I self taught myself about nutrition. I even managed a few nutrition stores in the past and was truly hooked! (If you want to know what a vitamin or herb supplement is good for, contact me). Seriously, I used to have people thanking me for relieving them of all kinds of ailments.

So, that brings us to the next way to relieve stress while dealing with life's issues and struggles.

4) Drink a herbal tea at least once a day. First of all, I suggest drink green tea because it is an antioxidant that fights against free radicals which are agents that cause or promote sickness and diseases. If you want to fight against ever having cancer, start drinking green tea. It's also an energy booster.

Also, to wind down my day, I drink chamomile tea. Chamomile is a calming herb that relaxes your mind and your body and you sleep well too. It helps take away the stress of the day or if you are just particularly stressed in general, try chamomile tea. Now, I only drink one cup every couple of days because for me, it gets me too relaxed and I sleep longer than expected. So, please try it out on a evening when you are staying home and off from work or school the next day. Some people may take a double bag in their tea cup; but don't call me saying you missed work because you didn't wake up on time!  LOL!! It depends on the person but it is all safe and natural. I have been drinking it for years.

Hint: If you want to reduce gray hair from growing, drink chamomile tea.

5) Lastly, sometimes it is just time to 'get out of dodge'. If you haven't heard of that term, sorry I'm old school. LOL! Anyway, you have to take time out for yourself. Take a long drive, spend the afternoon alone and do some things to relax and pamper yourself. It's essential we do this from time to time to... everyone say: RELIEVE MY STRESS. That's right. I recently just took off for the weekend because the stress was 'upon me' and I believe in 'doing me' sometimes. Don't let life keep you from taking care of yourself. It's really not that serious nor worth your physical and mental health.

There is probably more I could suggest but that is the jest of it. I didn't mean to get on the health tip and guide you like your parent but I had to discipline myself by using these methods as much as possible because life for me as well as you can be very, very stressful. Why go through all of the stress and ultimately shorten our lives because we did not know what we could do to relieve the pressures.

I hope this helps you and I wanted to also share this video with you of a 74 year old woman who is more fit than any 20 year old I've seen. She has transformed her body and I am sure she has added at least another 40-50 years to her life. She also cured her stress and anxiety by wanting to be healthy. When the bible says God promises us 120 years, she lady has proven you can be saved and fit.

She's a true role model.

God bless!

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How Homelessness and Homosexuality Gave Me a Willing Heart To Help Others

How Homelessness and Homosexuality Gave Me a Willing Heart To Help Others

I have always had a heart for people in general but in this instance, I did not know what God was doing in my life. I remember when I was homeless back in 1998, I was blessed to have a car and a job. It's kind of ironic but I cared more about the homeless sleeping in the park and under a cardboard box than I did my own life's state. I remember driving by Lake Merritt in Oakland, Ca. and I saw a man and women sitting on a park bench. It was raining 'cats and dogs; out there and I was getting sick to my stomach seeing them suffer through it. I  was with my now best friend (the former girlfriend whom I accepted Jesus into my life with) and we felt so bad that we at least had a car to sleep in but they were going to have to weather through the rainy storm. 

I remember it like it was yesterday.  We drove to a McDonald's restaurant nearby and bought them something to eat. As it may be hard to believe, we actually went through some of our things in the car to give to them. We were actually living out of our car.  We found both umbrellas and a watch I had been holding onto for years that, for some reason seemed to give me comfort. I gave up that comfort for someone in the same living situation as myself but worse off.

I’ll never forget how we walked up to the man and woman seated on the bench, as they held up one half broken umbrella to cover themselves. When they saw our faces, they seemed perplexed yet thrilled to see us hand them food and the umbrellas we had. I remember handing the older woman my watch and she smiled with a twinkle in her eye in the midst of the dark sky. I felt so warm inside yet hurt that I could not do more even in my situation. They both kept saying thank you and we replied with ‘take care’ and ‘we love you’ and ‘keep the faith’. I even prayed and cried for them from time to time.

You can imagine how my heart would nearly stop every time I drove by the park, hoping to see them again and give them what I could at the time. Unfortunately, I never saw them again and it’s been over 13 years and I still think of them.

This is why I do what I do. I support the homeless and I try and support those struggling in their spirits. I know now God did not want me to be that famous artist I had always dreamed of being, but to work for His kingdom. 

This story may seem like it has nothing to do with the homosexual lifestyle but it made a big difference in the coming years for me. While I was living as a homosexual and homeless at the time, God was showing me things I would have never seen before. It worked through me and whom I call my “God given sister” at those critical moments having to live in a car or motels. I did not know it then but he was setting me up for ministry and I would have never, ever went this route.

I try and explain to people that just because I grew up United Methodist and attended Catholic school, did not make me a Christian. We never spoke about God in our home growing up. I guess my parents, in some ways, thought school would teach me what I needed to know. (I’ll go into that on another post). But what I did not know, God was working in me even as a child. He brought me to this point and who would have imagined? 

So I shared this because, I think we don’t always know what we are destined to be or do. You may see yourself as a homosexual, bisexual, transgender now but what will God do in your life? What is He setting your up for that you may not realize at this time? If you have left an alternative lifestyle, you may not know what your future will bring through a relationship Jesus Christ. 

What I like to tell people is: When you pray, pray for wisdom, guidance and to do God’s will. When I started asking God to do as He will with my life, He opened up doors I never would have imagined.  I started to see life with my eyes open for the first time and I had true purpose. I still see my life as pretty simple but I my spirit is filled with His love.

What can God do for you even during your struggles? If you have walked away from homosexuality or other alternative lifestyles, what are your plans now? You may have no idea but I promise you, if you pray for wisdom, guidance and to do His will, He will truly bless you like you never seen before.  The real key to breaking these desires and strongholds, is wanting to change but most importantly, changing to PLEASE HIM. All He wants is your willing heart and He will do the rest. Just when you think its too difficult, giving it over to Him will prove He will fight your battles. It was never yours in the first place.

By doing so, you’ll be filled with joy, happiness, purpose and a yearning drive to please Him in all you do.

God bless!

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The Question is: Are You Really Happy Being Gay?

Are You Really Happy Being Gay?

I ask this question because I was there once a upon a time. I know how it feels to first get into the lifestyle after having thoughts of the same sex for years and not knowing where its coming from. I hope the following questions help you as they helped me and many others.

"But are you really happy living your life as a homosexual"

I know that sometimes being in the lifestyle was like the best thing ever. Most people feel like being gay and living it was their destiny and nothing could be greater.

"But is it really so wonderful?"

Sure, there are moments of what we feel is love, compassion and respect for and from the same sex. Maybe someone never really received the love they needed from a mother or father and finding it in the same sex, is what seems to fill the void.

"But does it really fill the void?"

I'm not sure after maybe sharing intimate moments with a significant other or many others will really make anyone happy when many times its only sex or the attraction that keeps the 'buzz' of excitement going.

"But what do you do when the excitement wears off?"

Well, maybe you move on to another lover and another in the relentless quest to find love but deep down you know it will never come. Why? Well, because what you are attracted to still doesn't seem to fulfill you like you want it to.

"But what about all of the homosexuals and lesbians getting married? Aren't they happy?"

I don't know. Some homosexuals may think they are born that way and again destined to live their life as such. Others are just aimlessly seeking to rid the pain of non-fulfillment in their lives. Others, also, may have experienced other things in life and its coming out as an attraction to the same sex and this is their goal. Their goal is to do what they feel is right but not necessarily what they know is right. So, they perhaps pursue getting married to the same sex even though some know deep down this is a mistake. 

"But why make a lifelong commitment knowing its a mistake?"

Well, for some, they feel its too late to turn back or its too hard to conquer homosexual feelings or no one will accept them if they change now. The big one is that God won't love and take them in.

The truth is: many gays appear happy because they have convinced themselves its what they really want. But deep down these individuals are not happy and only want to prove in many ways they are because to them, there's no turning back.

"But aren't there people out there that really are happy being gay?"

For their own reasons, and any former homosexual will tell you, that they didn't want or see themselves changing - EVER; but God touched them. I do believe that some people have been seduced by the homosexual spirit and think they may never change. Thanks be to God, it doesn't have to be that way.

"But what about those who have same sex attraction but don't want it anymore?"

Now, these individuals realize they are not happy. Also, maybe God is convicting them and they are fighting to get out of the lifestyle. Many of them have experienced the excitement of meeting someone and getting intimate but quickly realize after every encounter, it is just wrong. They know its against God and want to change but find it hard to do so.

If you find yourself asking some of these questions, then maybe you know you want to get out of the lifestyle of homosexuality. I don't confess to know everyone's situation or how everyone gets into homosexuality because everyone is unique. But I do speak on some of the common reasons why people get into the life.

It really doesn't matter how or why except the fact of wanting to pinpoint some unresolved issues in our lives. God knows it all and whatever reason we find ourselves in the gay lifestyle, He can get us out of it, if we really want out. He can give us the strength to fight the feelings for the same sex. If we only be open to hear and receive Him with all of our heart, will we then allow His spirit to move inside of us like never before. You will be surprised how strong you really are if you only allow the impossible to you be worked out by the impossible God. (Matthew 19:26)

I'm telling you. Once you give your life to Christ, and open up your heart, mind and soul to Him, He will do exceedingly, abundantly and more than you can ask, think or expect. (Ephesians 3:20).

You don't have to remain bound to the spirit of homosexuality. There is a way out and my God and your God can do it. Just come to Him and trust Him.

If you are man, woman, or teen struggling with homosexuality, same sex attraction or any other concern, please contact T. Marie for support at the Contact Page.

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