Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Overcoming Homosexuality: You Can't Do This By Yourself!

Overcoming Homosexuality: You Can't Do This By Yourself!

I was thinking about when I gave my life to Christ back in 1999 and it was the day after Thanksgiving. I actually saw the world in a different light. Everything appeared to be different to me. The familiar city I grew up in felt like a foreign place as if I had just moved there. I was clearly on a new journey and I knew my life would never be the same from that day forth.

At first, I never thought about what support I needed in the process. I had always been the type of person that I thought I could handle and conquer anything. But I did not realize that it would be very difficult to do this with no other support outside of reading my bible and praying to God. Though the woman I used to be with received Jesus the same day I did, we both needed support outside of ourselves. 

We tried contacting churches and ministries to help us but most people just shunned us and turned their noses up to us. As a new Christian,  it was confusing to realize that some churches and ministries don't recognize being formerly homosexual has a blessing from God. So, we had to just encourage each other and depend on God. And ultimately, this is what we all have to do if we don't have any help. We can rely on Him completely even in the really hard times; the really lonely times and the really confusing times. He is your 'all and all' and always believe in this.

Now, with that being said, I still believe people need help from others because we just naturally need one another. I know that I tackled my struggle without it but I just could not find the resources. And I will never, ever, ever, ever say it was easy because it was not. There were times I was completely confidant about my salvation and then there were times I felt I had not changed at all. Even in the moments of thoughts and feelings seeming to overwhelm me, that is when I felt my salvation was slipping; at least that is how I saw it. But I found out God does not condemn me for thoughts but only what I do with my thoughts. And I have to say, I developed a real fear of God and knew He was watching my every move and that was enough for me to stay strong. If you really think about how God really sees and watches over us all day long, then we realize that He cares about our true walk with Him.

The fact of the matter is: we really can not do this by ourselves. Our walk away from the lifestyle and walking beside God now, requires we continually seek Him in prayer and fasting and get in touch with people who really care and want the best for us. So, if you can get in contact with some group or ministry that can truly give you support you need in this struggle, you should.

That is why I make myself available to whomever wants or needs support and guidance. The fact that I did not get that kind of support is why I do what I do all the more. I know what it feels like to face the world and wonder if people know what you used to be. I know what if feels like to not know how to relate to people especially the same sex after being saved. I also know what it feels like to not have anyone you can talk to and when you do open up, they walk away because they can't deal with it. It seems like once you decide to leave the gay lifestyle, everything is new and unfamiliar. You literally have to start training yourself how to deal with certain people certain ways- At least that is what I faced.

So, you don't have to do this alone. God would rather us reason together and help one another. The best thing I could have done in my whole life is testify what God did for me. It literally was more important than life itself to me. It changes you on the inside and the joy is overwhelming.

Do you need help today? Are you struggling and don't know how to face life in the midst of change or even after change? Well, I know you can't do this by yourself. I'm here if you need to support.

God bless.


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