What Were You Really Looking For in Your Gay Relationships?

What Were You Really Looking For in Your Gay Relationships?

Have you ever asked yourself this question? Did you actually ponder on it and get an answer for yourself? 

Well, I have. I remember being hurt by the last man that was in my life and I knew at that point I was going to stop denying what I felt for women. You see, I had long before had a interest in the same sex from a pre-teen. I never wanted to act on it but it was always in the back of my mind. So when I broke it off with that last boyfriend then, I knew I really just wanted someone to love me.

And love is what I sought out and ultimately thought I would get it from a woman. Well, after meeting a few and having a few relationships, I had to start dealing with the fact that this was not working. Just when thought I found love, the other person was not serious enough, only wanted one thing or wanted what I could give them. I found myself doing and accepting more things than I should have- just in the name of love that I was not getting in the first place.

If you haven't realized it, the gay lifestyle is full of broken, insecure and quite frankly, leeching people. Now I am not saying everyone is that way but I can assure you that some people get into the lifestyle for many reasons and some of them are only looking for what you can do for them. The gay lifestyle appears to be the answer to loneliness and a void you need filled- but really we are fulfilling a physical desire that we don't understand in the first place and then sometimes others are looking to use and abuse the same sex. 

But the point is what were you really looking for and did you receive it? Some say 'no', and that they never received the love they were looking for and others say 'yes' but it ended up one sided. Others say same sex attraction or homosexuality is so destructive that they really did not know what they were doing getting involved in it.

What I say is this: In my experience, the gay lifestyle is a facade. We initially feel it is the answer to these aching desires we can't shake or for many of us we are looking for love. But what happens is we can get connected with people who have not intentions on doing us any good. We find ourselves more broken, hurt and confused then before. 

My experiences were trying to seek real love in the same sex relationships and finding myself compromising and never receiving true love.

This may not be your story but I don't think that people can deny that the gay lifestyle is destructive and a 'take and take more without giving' type of life. 

So whatever you were looking for in the same sex lifestyle, you most likely never received it because there are so many people who are in it that take advantage of one another.

Your only true love is from Jesus Christ. He gave up his life for you on the Cross and who could love us more than that? Stop looking for your true love and realize God has been on your side always.